Pregnancy #2

I haven't posted anything in a few months or mentioned my being pregnant yet, though everyone now knows. I am in the middle of my 16th week and I have to be honest about how difficult these past few months have been for me and how hard they have been on our family. When I was pregnant with Taylor and dealing with all the horrible sickness I only had myself to care for. Aryn was busy with school and then going back and forth across the state for work. This time around I have my almost two year old little bundle of energy to look after and care for and I cannot even express the exhaustion and the saddness and gulit that goes along with not feeling like I am able to care for my child because of my pregnancy. I am not the kind of person who asks for help and I take pride in caring for my family and have a hard time putting myself first so it has not been easy for me. It took a trip to the hospital to make me realize that I couldn't do it on my own and finally got me to give into taking the medication Zofran for anti nausea and vomiting. Thanks to the medication life got a little easier and I was able to start eating and drinking again but the Hyperemesis has yet to go away completely. I have since gone off the Zofran but am still taking another medication at night that I recently discovered I cannot do without quite yet. It has been hard to be excited when the journey so far has been so difficult, but I know that the end is near. I have stopped loosing weight and been doing much better being able to eat, although that part is the most difficult still (nothing tasts good when you have thrown it up for months ). I am no longer worried about dehydration since i am able to drink water now without throwing it up and am hopeful that the baby is doing okay in there. I never imagined it would be so hard on my body to carry a child, but I cannot express the love I have for both of my babies and wouldn't give that up for anything.